a feel that comes --- so suddenly

suddenly haf a feeling, i dun like it there ...

very obviously, they are not ready to accept new attachment students into the company...they gt nth in mind, no plan for us, no seat at first, and that makes me feel i m so unwelcomed...saddens me, makes me reali discouraged...i tried to tink another, bt these -ve thots jus cum bac unknowingly...

i dun like the feeling of sitting in an office doing the same thing everyday, and not learning anything new;
i dun like the feeling of doing something but no one appreciates or even say a thank you;

i dun mind sitting in an office for the whole day with something new to learn everyday;
i dun mind doing something which someone rejects in the end;

i jus wan someone to acknowledge my presence, and at least say a thank you for my effort put in...

everyday go office, they ask "what are you suppose to do today?" >> my reply everyday is "documentations..?"
is not i din finish it, actuali we finished everything that we could weeks ago, only short of the compiling..why dun wan to do?

when i wan to do, we nid to go on-site;

when i wan to do the other documents where info is not given to me, i dun noe and i asked the ppl around there, but no one knows the answer, otherwise is they dun answer you straight...why cannot find from the net myself? bcz all these are created by tcm ppl themselves, n its not yet "shared"...

i dun wan do any work at hm, jus wan spend time wif family or do things that i like or catch up with kumon work...

even if we said we finished now, do they have anything more things to let us do? our attachment project has not yet release to us, and we can't possibly stick around those programmers and ask them this and that, as it will disturb their work somehow...ask them abt the documentations stuff, they dun noe...

our supervisor is always not around, we only see them when we had to do wireless testing at nuh these days...ask them things they also duno, also din bother to find out the answer...

worst still, the report they write are .... sorry i cn only say its very very very different from what I would do...because i would b as specific as i cn...until someone tells me some details are not needed...

actuali i very much hope that i cn conduct wireless testing myself, bcz i would try as much as possible to conduct a fair test for all to get as accurate n reliable as possible, so that it makes the job of the technical team easier to analyse the results and find out wads wrong...

when i first heard my lecturer say they might wan us to stay if we r hardworking enough...n when ma tells me nt to bcz always haf to go hospitals, i always rebut her...

bt nw, with this kind of environment, i would think doubly twice, IF they happen to ask me to stay...