I have no idea why, but I keep feeling guilty of something I think I have done wrong, VERY EASILY these days.
It's just like today. Just hours before the demo, developers found out that the submission feature is not working. One of them came to me and ask if it was working days ago. I replied honestly that "it had been malfunctioning since last Friday, but! I didn't raise a bug for it, because I thought it was still in progress of developing, and not ready for testing..."
Well, I guess what makes me feel guilty is when he mentioned, "We just discovered this issue and we are just couple of hours away from the demo..." and gave me that well-what-to-do kind of face.
It makes me feel that way because it seems like I'm not doing what I should be with INITIATIVE & PROACTIVELY. (But I did do my best to improve the processing time on bug verification ASAP - I promise I really did, which was why I did all the OTs! -.-)
HOWEVER! I now think I shouldn't feel this way (guilty) at all! Just work out something, improve on what needs to improve and MOVE ON! Why should I waste time looking back? (Quote: "Don't look back. You're not going that way.")
So yes, and because during the demo, for umpteen times I wasn't being introduced that I did attend the sessions. -.- & what makes me happy for a while was that the lead developer of the vendor's team, said "& Siew Ling", to try to add on to the list of attendees 'someone' was making but always excluded me.
So yes, that definitely brighten my day! (Quote AGAIN: "Be so good, no one can ignore you.") Hahaha.. That sounds nice isn't it?
Conclusion:
Before I want others to love me, I MUST first love myself, love who I am, love what I do.
Before I want others to respect me, I MUST first respect myself, respect who I am, respect what I do.
& Finally...
Just Be Me!!
XD Right!!! Let's move on & unknowingly its past bed time!!!! Nights everyone! <3
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