I woke up at ard 8, rush to clean up, thinking of driving my sis to MDIS at Orchard for her class today. But its raining so she decided to take train as there would be no jam, so faster. So I took the i-Weekly and went to bed lay doiwn and read.

Read, read, read...i finish the whole book and felt so sleepy, so fell asleep. And i actually slept until 12plus! When I woke up the "weather" is black. Not a word, not a look towards my direction. I dont know what is wrong. Is it because I slept too much? and this bad habit havent got out of me? yes...maybe. I really dont know what happened, just say to myself, "yes its my fault. All because of me." Maybe if from tomorrow onwards, I wake up super duper early, leave the house, and go back home super duper late, she dont see me, dont hear me. Will she feel better? If so, I will do it this time round. I wont be soft, and I wont turn back.

I really dont want because of me and my bad habits, make till the whole family has to face the "storm" everyday, every minute, every second. They worked hard, they have no wrong, so they shouldnt get this punishment.

Actually, I always say the stds at APS. But I think...I have no right. I dont even have the right to be a teacher. I am not fit to be one. Maybe this job that I am doing, doesnt even suit me. Maybe I should just...