someone

Today I went to school feeling a bit down, not because I have got to reach school early in the morning at 8am but because I will be in the same class as someone...

Not someone i dislike to sit with, though. But someone i actually dreamed of being with...yaah..i m so stupid, whenever and whoever i got this kind of thought for, i will later somehow find out that person is no longer single...(ouch, that feeling hurts...)

First two weeks still talks but last few days reduced...haiz...i noe i noe...m supposed to concentrate on studies but believe me, this type of feeling will jus come and go very quickly, especially for me...today ya gt say a few lines only...hmm...is it that i spoilt my own image, by talking non-stop about another gal's bad attitude? ya most probably...duno y, last time also similar situation happen to me not because i bad-mouthed or gossip others, but coz i din tink properly and blurt out "throw my face" den that person nvr called again...

sian sian sian....i tink i will nvr b in love...when i m abt to go in, my behaviour pulls me out...ok fine..i admit...my wrong. i made a wish on my bdae last thurs to stop talking abt others negative points, and think of their good onli...so i m trying hard...

To convince my another gal partner to let the other gal who i 've talked abt to join our grp for MT proj...nt that because we have nt enuf ppl to form a grp of 3, bt i tink its my fault to have neglected her for the last 2 yrs, and this perhaps its a gd time to make up to her and also to give her a chance to prove me wrong, for my perception of her for the past 2 yrs.

So nw i m hoping for the best, changing for the good....Trying hard...=)